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Friday, July 01, 2005
hey blog i have very much to say, totally bad day today right up to just now, after talking felt a million times better, just totally blab out evrything i felt.. evrything off my shoulder.. thank you* today's SJ day. today sucked to the core. one of de worst days ever. firstly it was maths. ms fang eat into our bloody recess. my yong tau foo gone. and i couldnt even go toilet and it was like ARGH damn need to go. goin up the board n doing sums while eatin ice cream was lame though.. dunmanian idol was cool and appealing. din vote and in de end it din make a difference cos i liked 7 who won. after school something totally pissed me off. i was a lost to how i should feel, but after anaylsis i think i bloody don deserve that. yes ive screwed up in certain ways, but i don deserved to be hollowed at. my parents shout at me like tt i will kinda rebel. but my parents i respect. YOU? who the fuck are you to do that then. and i just din say a word. i don see anyone else my age having that treatment. im old enough to learn if you talk to me properly. WHATEVER u said, doesnt scare me. doesnt threaten me. you didnt even give me a chance to explain certain stuff. thank you for one thing though, im certain now of a decision im going to make, because i realise that im not interested anymore towards this. i just need to wait 3 weeks more. then it will all be over. ALL. then mock comp. screwed FA. alright HN. SCREWED FD thanks to me i hate myself. alright HN. ok FA. go home. very late too. the fact that evryone around me was feeling down didnt help. but its just gonna be 1 more week. lets just put in our best. i dono why im so absent minded nowadays.. damn obvious la. carmen i must focus! thursday comp trained after waiting for sally sinee, wednesday went out~* then guitar as usual. tuesday went eat, and was led by a tampines PRO to tuition.. haha. girls cannot tell direction. i feel that way. or is it just me. its damn INSIDE n inconvinient. but think i know how to go from now on. monday i went home with kristian and dickson after school. totally nothing to do, on monday no mood either. yep. thats all. next thing to look forward to is less then 24 hours away. haha. rite mich and shuang. after that, i really hope i can just go through it. just go through the bloody week ahead. hopefully i can handle the load. |